State of the Union: Warm sunshine, summer on the brink. Life is good. I’ve got one more week of work left. I’ve really enjoyed conducting final assessments and seeing how much my little readers have improved since the fall. Of course, I am getting sentimental with these kiddos as I reach the last few days of this job…but in the end, I know that moving on to other opportunities is the right move. On that note, I have a couple of offers on the table for new part-time jobs. While I am thankful, I am also still in that constant state of turmoil. Part of me really wants to jump on and ride these waves, while part of me yearns for calmer waters. Do I go with scatter or focus? An Impressionistic blur of bustle and busy…or a still-life landscape with crisp edges and finite borders? Both portraits are rich and full and worthy of high art, but offer such different experiences for the creator.
I am thankful… for a thoughtful husband! On Mother’s Day, Ben woke up with Everett and made me a special breakfast: waffles with homemade strawberry syrup and fresh whipped cream. It was delightful. That afternoon, I had a good phone chat with my wonderful like-a-mom “Aunt C” and enjoyed some summer clothes shopping by myself. How I love to shop alone!–perusing the sale rack for an hour with no pressure to move on, dawdling in the dressing room, wandering mindlessly through the swarms of harried shoppers. A great mama’s day and start to the week!
I am learning… to just keep putting myself out there and opportunities will surface. It can be a difficult thing to do in both the personal and professional realms, but I have found that taking advantage of any opportunity to get to know someone or explore a new experience is usually rewarding. In the past year, I have landed job opportunities and developed many great friendships by taking a few risks and unfurling my assets, quirks, and weaknesses for others to see. Some days, it feel exhausting–but in the end, I think it builds a richer life.
I wonder… how Ev will do on our big camping trip next weekend. We are headed to the beach for Memorial Day weekend! Driving to Pensacola to set up camp near the sandy shore. Everett was a fantastic camper as a 6-month old…but he was not really mobile yet. We shall see what new adventures this second round will bring! I will have to suppress my spazzy mom flare-ups when Everett attempts to crawl into fire ant mounds and eat sand, but I am excited to watch him dip his toes in the tide. Perhaps he’ll surprise us all and take his first steps on the sand!
On my mind: I must get into a workout routine. Ben and I are both in a total rut of inactivity. I really don’t have any good excuses. I’ve been running once a week with my friend Jess, which has been a great motivator–but it’s starting to get too hot for my defective sweat glands to cope. My plan is to reactivate our Y membership this week and to try to do the free yoga in the park on Saturdays whenever Ben is off. I just feel physically weak–so my aim is to focus on core strengthening and muscle tone, rather than abiding by my typical philosophy that a workout is not a real “work out” unless it involves intense cardio.
On my heart: Everett has started to show a glimmer of a desire to cuddle…for the first time since he left my womb! He will crawl up to me and play a game where he lays his head on my chest and then lifts it to grin at me and giggle. He repeats this process three or four times before needing to secure his independence and scurry away. I am in heaven. Yesterday, he even let me hold him in my lap to read four or five books in a row (we usually can’t get through 1!) His current favorite is Dr. Seuss’ Alphabet. He giggles at every page…especially G: “Goat in Goo Goo Goggles!” My sweet boy.
Weekly Reader: Trying to power read through “Raising Cain: Protecting the Emotional Lives of Boys” before my mom’s book club meeting on Tuesday. It’s been an interesting read… the overarching takeaway is the importance of modeling and teaching boys how to express their emotions. Goodbye macho man.
What’s Cooking: Garlic scapes! So excited they are finally at the Farmer’s Market! We discovered these gems at our farmer’s market in Minnesota and have spent the last few weeks hounding the farmers here about their harvest date. They are only in season for a short time, so we bought 3 bunches last week and will probably do the same tomorrow. If you’ve never tasted them, I highly recommend you harass your local farmers and check them out. Sautee them in a little butter with salt and pepper–just like a garlicky green bean. Yum! Other new recipes we tried this week: Cuban black bean stew and a sausage, kale, white bean & polenta dish. Both turned out to be good, quick vegetarian meals to add to our rotation.
“Ev”Capades: We are in a screaming phase. My little boy’s volume dial is stuck on max decibels. Some times these banshee calls are just in fun, but other times they are shrieks of frustration. With being right on the cusp of both walking and forming some words, I think his little brain is telling his body to do things he can’t quite manifest yet. Everett’s getting closer to walking everyday and will now walk while holding on to our fingers. We are so excited for him to grasp this big move towards independence!
Happy Highlights: We toured the Hatcher Dairy Farm with my mom’s group this week. We’ve been buying our milk from them every week at our farmer’s market, so it was great to see the farm in action. Everett enjoyed petting the cows and climbing on the hay bales…and he got his first taste of chocolate milk. I’m just so happy that he is able to drink milk and that we are not forking over funds for Neocate Toddler!
Looking Ahead: Ben’s on call this weekend, so Ev and I will have some mommy-son bonding time. Next week, we’ll be gearing up for our trip to ‘da beach’! We leave on Friday when Ben gets off from call. We’ll be doing an anti-rain dance and hoping for smooth car travels and peaceful nights under the stars!